ok. so this is probably going to look a lot more like a journal entry because i am going to get very personal. i have had a lot of things going on in my head lately. i have been battling a lot of insecurities with my photography and i’ve decided to share it with you. that’s what this is about, right? for y’all to get to know me better, i need to be open and honest with you. so here i am, about to bare my soul. don’t think i’m too crazy, okay? :)
one thing that has been bumming me out lately is that i’m in the “in between” phase. i am at that point in my business right now, where i meet potential clients who either expect me to photograph their event for practically nothing OR clients that don’t think i’m established enough and choose someone who is more expensive than me. needless to say, i have been pretty frustrated lately. i don’t know how to get out of this rut. do other photographers experience the same thing as me? it stinks. i put a LOT of work into my photography. i try my best to get to know my clients and i plan out their sessions to fit them. i work hard to customize everything to fit my client, because i believe that is what they deserve, something special and unique just for them. i feel like i put SO MUCH into what i do.
it can be so discouraging at times. i feel like some people expect me to shoot their engagement pictures, photograph their 12-hour-wedding extravaganza, plus edit all of their photos for next to nothing. i feel like i am reasonably priced and try my best to be budget friendly, but i also believe that people try to take advantage of that sometimes. because i love what i do so much, i really would do everything for free. BUT that doesn’t pay the bills or buy equipment haha, so i can’t do that.
then i meet people who love all the work i put into it, but feel because i don’t charge that much it must mean i’m not that good. they see my lower prices as almost a weakness. they think i must not really be that good if my prices are so cheap. urgghhh. craziness i tell you! i feel like i’m caught between a rock and hard place. i would love to know if other photographers experienced this at the beginning of their business. it would help put some perspective on this situation and definitely help me in my time of despair. this “in between” phase can be very challenging. i’m sure a lot of the photographers i look up to once went through the same thing. it’s just so hard right now haha. any encouragement would be lovely! :)
please don’t think i’m about to quit photography, though. no no no. i love it and will ALWAYS do it for as long as i am able. i guess i just need to stop worrying so much. i know God will take care of me. i guess because this is uncharted territory, i’m just really apprehensive when i hit spots like this. i need to have faith that God will take care of me. now just comes the waiting game and a lot of patience for me to grow and mature as a business. but hey! i’m in it to win it. i’m passionate about this and i’m not going anywhere. besides, this is not about the money for me. it’s about capturing life’s awesome moments to relive over and over.
i need to start focusing more on the blessings God gives me instead of worrying about the clients that got away. i know that everything happens for a reason, so if those clients didn’t want to use my services, it was for the best. i truly have been blessed with great clients this year. all of my brides have been beyond amazing. they were chill and awesome and super sweet. seriously, i need to stop fretting. God will take care of me and my business as long as i keep things based on Him. everything will be okay and will happen the way he has planned. i just need to BREATHE! haha.
wow! this post has been really therapeutic for me. i guess it really was like a journal entry haha. thanks for listening to my little moment of crisis. i appreciate it. :) but seriously, feel free to pray for me. this is not an easy journey, but i know it’s what God wants so i’m ready for the adventure.
happy tuesday everyone. if you feel like giving up, don’t. fighting for something makes you appreciate it more than if you just got it handed to you. keep the faith, loves!
LOVE this movie and quote. so true! :)